My inspiration for this post came from my dear, longtime blogging friend, Debbie @ Musings by an ND Domer's Mom, who is not only a gifted...

I owe my inspiration for this post topic to SuziCate @ A Water Witch's Daughter, who wrote an awesome thought-provoking and enlightening post last week, entitled, Feeding The Beasts Within.
(so thank you, Suzi…..x)
Suzi expressed how we are all hungry beasts with a need to feed our desires for success, to be heard, and to be known. Yet, even though we desire these things there is a part of us that fears failure, ridicule, and being misunderstood.
Within her post, she said something that really caught my attention and hit home.
She said….
“It seems our biggest obstacle is fear.
Maybe the things we fear aren’t so large after all.
Maybe we just allow fear to grow out of hand.
Very possibly we are afraid to know our own power.”
And the line that hit me the strongest was….
“Very possibly we are afraid to know our own power.”
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Back when I first started my acting career, I went through a period of paralyzing fear.
I feared being judged. I feared being ridiculed. I feared not being good enough.
And to be perfectly honest with you, I was judged, I was ridiculed, and I wasn’t always good enough (at first).
Yet, I pursued and did it anyway because I refused to allow these things to stop me from doing what I enjoyed.
But that fear, even though it lessened throughout the years, never fully left me; always lurking within the recesses of my mind.
Then, at some point, I began to wonder if it really wasn’t failure I was afraid of, but rather success.
Or, as Suzi said… “afraid to know my own power.”
Could it be that I was actually afraid to experience my own personal power?
Yes, it was.
Because once I acknowledged my own power, I could no longer deny it.
And once I achieved success, the challenges would get greater.
I realized it was much easier for me to deny my own power, so I would never have to know success.
And I know that sounds strange because we all believe we want to achieve success.
However, think about it.
Once we discover our own power and achieve success….what will we do with it? Where will we go?
And that is where the fear lies.

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