Friday, December 30, 2011

Happy Nude Year!

I realize this will probably be like the 500th New Year’s blog post you’ve already read this week, so I won’t bore you with how I plan on setting a resolution pack with myself for a better 2012, because first of all I can never KEEP resolutions, and second of all I don’t believe in them for myself.

If I resolve or change something about my life, I certainly don’t need a New Year to do it.

Besides, change will happen to me whenever it’s supposed to happen, whether I want it to or not.

Change is inevitable. I can either embrace it or resist it, but it’s still going to change.

I never think of New Years as the beginning of starting something that I want to have happen. I tend to think of New Years with anticipation as to what life is going to give me to happen.

I follow my life. I don’t navigate my life to follow my wants, because my wants are constantly vacillating.

And quite frankly, I don’t always know what’s best for me.

Too many times I’ve actively planned and organized my life as to what direction I wanted it to go, only to be sideswiped by a detour. A detour that required me to take a different path. A path that was much better for me than the one I had planned.

Sometimes the most powerful thing I can do to change the direction of my life…is to stay attentive, wait for my life to give me a cue, and then muster the courage to follow it.

That being said, I can sense a lot of change and growth happening for me in 2012.

And yet, I’m not quite sure as to WHAT that change and growth will actually entail, but I look forward to it with excitement.

For some reason, I feel myself stretching my creative muscles in 2012 – possible changes and expansions in my blog, and changes at work.

I also feel myself opening more to intimacy.

And I know that some of these changes will be challenging because they will cause me to look deep within myself and address my fears. But that’s a good thing. I’ve learned something about my fears; they are my greatest teachers because they allow me to feel both vulnerable and powerful.

My fears are like doorways that when finally opened, I see that I had nothing to fear but my own sense of fearing fear.

Therefore, I embrace the changes and growth that this New Year will have happen to me.

Knowing, I will have all the means at hand to move with these changes.

So bring it on, 2012!

Happy Nude Year Everyone!

And thank you SO MUCH for sharing this past year with me. I look forward to continuing our journey’s with one another in the upcoming year; discovering things as we grow.

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