Yes, I believe in symbolism.
Things come into my life for a reason.
And such as it was with a dragonfly.
I have been sensing a change in my life and have felt this since last spring.
And I can always tell when something is going to change because I get the same feelings far before the change actually manifests.
Back in May, I began to feel anxious, a bit scared, confused and unsure of myself. But those feelings are ones that I always take as a positive sign because they usually mean that I’m about to transform in some way.
It’s good to be scared, confused and unsure of myself because it means I’m being guided to do something out of faith. It means walking through darkness and trusting, even without the use of a flashlight.
I have wanted a change in my place of employment for some time now. And it’s not that I don’t like my job because I do. In fact, I love my job, it’s just that I didn’t enjoy working where I was working. And I also felt that I needed to grow and stretch myself because I was getting bored doing the same thing for nine years.
As you know, I took a second job over the summer because my hours were reduced in my other job, but also because I was silently hoping that this second job would be a way for me to permanently exit and move on.
For the past three months, I’ve been debating back and forth on whether I should even return to my other job in September, but was concerned that the new job would financially enable me to make a living if I threw myself into one job, while letting the other one go.
In mid-July, I went through a period of not knowing what the hell to do. But then suddenly a management position opened up in my new job and something told me to apply for it. Well, it’s been a long month and a half of finding out whether I would get the job because of corporate procedures and my salary request.
So I waited and waited; all the while unsure of what my future would be, yet I had a feeling that it would all work out if I just allowed it to transpire.
And it was during this time of waiting that something happened which confirmed my feeling.
I like to take long walks at night during the summer because it clears my mind and helps me to stay open to guidance. Walking is like a meditation for me.
Well, one night when I returned from a walk, I entered through the door of my apartment and immediately saw a large dragonfly attached to a screen on one of my windows. And at first I thought I was seeing things because I couldn’t understand how a dragonfly got on a window screen that was 21 floors above the ground. But there is was.
I gently walked over to the window because I didn’t want to frighten the dragonfly, and just looked at it.
Then, something told me to go online and Google “the symbolism of a dragonfly.” Yes, I know that’s an odd thing to do, but I did it anyway. I immediately found the website, Spirit Animals & Animal Totems, and spotted a picture of a dragonfly. Here’s what it said:
- Change and transformation
When this totem animal shows up in your life, it’s an indication that it’s time for change. Just like the dragonfly changes colors as it matures, you may be called to live and experience yourself differently. Stay open to the enfoldment of your personal journey.
You can call on the dragonfly power animal when you’re stuck in a situation and need assistance to gain a new perspective. The solution might lay in your ability to adapt and tackle the issue from a different angle.
Instantaneously, I knew that the dragonfly had landed on my window for a reason - a sign - telling me that I needed to view this change with a different perspective and let go of my attachment to the outcome.
Now here’s the strange part. That dragonfly stayed on my window screen for the rest of the evening. And before I went to bed, I walked over to the screen and closely looked at it one more time before gently shutting the window. And when I woke up the next morning...it was gone.
Often times when we desire a change, we stay in the middle. Yes, we want a change, but we hesitate to let go of the old to make room for the new because we don’t know how the new will be.
And for me, I don’t think I was willing to let go at first, I was more focused on the uncertainty of what would happen if I did let go. I was wavering in the middle.
Anyway, to make a LONG story short, last Saturday I was offered the manager position and let go of my previous job. And I am at peace and very happy with that choice.
So you see, it all worked out.
Have a super Monday, y'all!