My inspiration for this post came from my dear, longtime blogging friend, Debbie @ Musings by an ND Domer's Mom, who is not only a gifted...
When first becoming a Reiki (Ray-Key) practitioner, the student goes through a procedure, whereby a Reiki Master/Teacher administers a series of hands-on attunements, preparing them to become a clear and open channel through which Universal life force energy will flow.
After the attunements, the student will very often experience a deep cleansing process which can induce a purging of things that need to be healed. As the Reiki energy rearranges the students newly attuned energetic system, an internal housecleaning takes place.
Reiki starts, by healing the practitioner first.
Every student is different. Some will experience more of a physical cleansing, some more emotional.
My cleansing was emotional. And when I say emotional….I mean EMOTIONAL.
I went through a tremendous amount of anger at first. I felt like an exposed nerve for almost a year; getting angry at the smallest things. I was always pissed. I kept a journal during this time, and when I went back to read what I had written, I noticed that the base of my anger was rooted and directed at myself. All my life I had placed WAY too much pressure on myself to be perfect.
And by perfect I mean, I had a compulsive need to achieve this preconceived vision of what I thought I had to do to change myself in order to achieve perfection, yet at the same time trying desperately to accept myself. It was not possible to do both.
That’s why I was so angry.
It was like a vicious cycle. My only focus had always been on all the things I didn’t like about myself, so how could I ever accept myself?
I came to realize that I first had to accept myself for who and what I was. Ironically, once I slowly started doing that I no longer felt the constant drive to change myself. The changes within me simply occurred naturally, without any need to do anything, other than to embrace the changes.
I began to relax into my life, allowing ‘it’ to guide me. I stopped judging myself and defused my unattainable vision of perfection.
All of this came to light because of Reiki. And even though during that first year of deep cleansing, while I sometimes felt as if my life was falling apart, it was Reiki that showed me my life was actually coming together; supporting me through the process.
In 1999, I became a certified Foot Reflexologist. Reflexology is based on the principle that when reflex points on the feet are stimulated, a healing is possible. And all though this modality is applied physically, the effects of the treatment are based on energy work.
About 6 months after my certification was completed, I began using a combination of both Reiki and Reflexology in my treatment sessions with clients, and the results were very positive.
In 2001, I moved back east and worked part time at a day-spa sharing my services. I enjoyed my time there, however I felt like I wasn’t in the best environment for what I was truly meant to do with my training. Reiki has a way of guiding each individual to where they can serve the most.
I felt myself being pulled to work with people who were either seriously ill or dying. I know that may sound depressing to most of you, yet serious illness and death are things that have never made me feel uncomfortable, or have caused me to want to look away.
I eventually discovered a non-denomination spiritual center that offered their services for free, to those living with the HIV virus. So, I interviewed to volunteer and was accepted. I volunteered there for four years, until the center lost its funding.
During those fours years, I learned more about the power of Reiki than anywhere else. As I shared in my previous post, there are times when a physical illness may not ever be completely healed, however through Reiki, we can heal how we live with it. I can honestly say that the clients I worked on, gave ME much more than I ever gave THEM. Because they showed me how to live a full and rich life in spite of a serious illness. The life stories they shared with me, touched my own life in ways I’ve never been so deeply touched.
Many of the clients I volunteered with are still living strong and quality lives. Yet, a few have passed on.
And although I experienced pain and sadness in those losses, I was also left with an invaluable understanding.
Whenever we reach out to touch someone in an offering to heal….we are also healed.
That’s Reiki.
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